I
burst out of the restaurant, tears streaming down my face. Furious, I throw my bouquet of red roses on
the ground and stomp them until they are nothing more than a pile of fragrant
confetti. Sobbing, I sink down on the
curb and bury my face in my hands. I
gradually become aware of wary looks from people passing by. I take a deep breath and slowly rise to my
feet. I wipe my face and stick my arm
out to hail a cab. After three taxis
sail by without picking up the disheveled crying lady surrounded by tattered
roses, I throw up my arms and begin trudging up the street to the bus stop.
My mind is racing. I have never felt so pathetic in my
life. I had been looking forward to this
night for weeks. I went out and bought
an outrageously expensive dress and the highest pair of heels I have ever
owned. My toes are numb from being
squashed into these monstrosities. I
spent hours doing my hair and makeup, agonizing over which necklace to
wear. I was excited. I was so bubbly, I felt like I had a belly
full of champagne. Now all I feel is the
hangover.
I went to the restaurant, our
restaurant, where we had our first date.
As soon as I said my name to the hostess, I was whisked away to a
private VIP room filled with glamorous couples.
Three waiters simultaneously handed me a dozen red roses, champagne, and
a menu. I beamed and soaked up the
pampering I was receiving. The minutes
ticked by as I waited for Jordan, but he never showed. I sat there and endured the pitied looks from
the men and snotty, self-satisfied smirks from the women. After an hour of trying to look composed
while sipping my champagne, I was asked to give up my table. My frustration combined with the waiter’s
syrupy, faux-sweet demeanor as he gave me the boot sent me over the edge, and I
lost it. I screamed in frustration at
being humiliated like this. I smashed my
champagne flute on the floor, snatched up my roses and made for the door. The waiter stopped me. “You’re going to have to pay for that, you
know,” he spat as he clamped onto my arm like a vise. I yanked free of his grasp, my eyes
flaming. “Put it on his credit card!” I
snarled.
My eyes cloud at the embarrassing
memory. I can’t believe he abandoned me
on Valentine’s Day. I get to the bus
stop with my head hung low, sniffling like a child. I lean against a nearby pole and close my
eyes. I just want to go home and forget
this horrible day. After a couple
minutes, I feel a finger lift my chin. I
raise my eyes…and it’s him. My first
instinct is to slap him across the face, but instead I throw my arms around him
and squeeze as hard as I can. “Jordan,”
I whisper. “I didn’t think you were
going to come.” The tears glittering in
his eyes are enough apology for me.
He takes my hand in his and we begin
walking back up the street. As we get
closer to our restaurant, he looks at me inquisitively. I’m not hungry anymore, plus I’m sure I’ve
been banned for my little display. I
shake my head no, but he’s looking past me.
I follow his gaze. He’s staring
at the roses I destroyed. I feel a tinge
of regret and I bend to pick up the card that was attached to the bouquet. My heart warms as I read the message. “Paige.
I will love you now and forever.
You will always be a part of me.
Love, Jordan.”
We walk around town for hours, hand
in hand. When I talk, he listens, but
mostly we just wander and enjoy being together.
My feet ache in my expensive new shoes, but I don’t pay them any mind. He stops and picks me some flowers that are
growing on the side of the road. The
night begins to fade into dawn. My heart
begins to pound as pink streaks the sky.
I hadn’t realized how late it was.
I lean in for one more kiss before we walk him home. He strokes my cheek and pulls me into his
arms. Before he goes, he murmurs two words into my hair. “Be good.”
My teardrops splash the stone as I
trace the engraving on the grave marker.
“Jordan. Loving son & fiancé. Died February 14th, 2009” I’ll
never forget that day. I twist my
engagement ring as the memories come flooding back to me. I was waiting for him at our restaurant when
I got the call about the accident, and my entire world came crashing down
around me.
I lay my flowers at the base of the headstone. “Happy Valentine’s Day, baby. You will always be a part of me.” I say quietly. As I walk away, I finger the flower card in
my pocket. I pull it out to read it
again. The writing on the card is
identical to mine...just like last year.
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